nay nay

christmas

usually i hate this time of year.  but i think since we have our own place i am actually excited about chritmas. we might be broke but we have all the love in the world.  i am currently uploading xmas music which i hate most of the time but my boss said if i brought the ipod dock in we could at least listen to something.  i will be adding extra versions of last christmas for my enjoyment.  if it were only i bit cooler i would super excited for thanksgiving.  papa is coming to visit which is awesome, i just wish he was staying longer.  i wish tess was coming home too but i think i might go to visit as a surprise in march.  so much to do once the holidays are over,  let the wedding madness begin.  still kind of wishing we just went to las vegas but oh well,

family

sometimes i think that it would be so much eaiser if ken and i just went to vegas and got married.  then i wouldnt have to think about planning anything at all.  i would like to also like to figure out at what age to i actually become an adult in the eyes of my family.  i am 26 engaged and i still have to sit at the kiddie table.  i mean. come on. i could kind of understand if this was my step family or ken’s family.  but these people have the same last name as me. they are MY family.  ug.  i guess my only pay back is bad seating arangements at the wedding.  i wish we could afford a wedding planner.  i just have no urge to plan.  the idea of getting my hopes up about at place to have the wedding and then find out its not available would just annoy me.  i cant even figure out who should be maid of honor.  its just too much.  i just want to be with ken.  that much i know.

i have a giant food baby growing in my belly.  ken and i just returned from dinner and i think i may be dying.  all i want to do is play little big planet.

a new year

i think that i am going to start writing in this everyday…lets see how long that lasts.

but today i was sick.. i have been sick for over a week.  i fainted at work the other day and ofcourse the first thing my mom asks me is “are you preggers?” lol no

but hopefully this will be out of my system by thrusday.

i am on vacation

i have not posted on this thing in ages.,.if at all.  i felt the need to update with pictures of my vacation but i realized i left the cord for my camera back in the states.  so i guess things will have to wait.  basically its nice and hot and island like.